For My Best Friend

The 31st of August, that seems absolutely crazy to me. Time is literally flying by. Alex and I were talking yesterday about how far along I am and he said, "you got pregnant in April so you're like 3 1/2 months right?" lol I said, "sweetie, I got pregnant in May, so i'm 4 months and a week pregnant" hahaha. We debated about it for quite awhile and neither of our counting was matching up, then I remembered for some reason they add the few weeks before you got pregnant to your gestation, so really it's a little longer than a 9 month pregnancy. Anyway, I'm 17 weeks (4 months & 1 week) this week! Eeek :]

I've been feeling the baby move a lot lately..it is a completely indescribable, absolutely incredible feeling. He (don't know the sex yet, but we just say he for now) feels like the size of a grapefruit maybe? I haven't felt any kicks or punches yet, but when he stretches and turns over I can feel him scrape across the top of my tummy. It kinda feels like my tummy turns upside-down, or like butterflies when you're anxious or nervous. If you've already experienced it you know what i'm talking about & if you haven't just wait, it's the best feeling ever.

Surprisingly i'm not really showing very much at all, unless I eat a huge meal then you can definitely see him or if I lay on my back, then you can really see him. I haven't really gained any weight either, I think i've put on like 3lbs or something? The doctor said that's pretty normal though. The second trimester has been a breeze compared to the first! No throwing up or nausea. Not as tired as I used to be, although the heartburn has continued from the first trimester and hasn't subsided one bit. I've never had heartburn before I got pregnant & I got hit with it like a ton of bricks! The two things that have changed in the second trimester are my appetite and my boobs. First trimester I wasn't really hungry & didn't eat too much, but now..I feel like i'm never full. I can eat a Thanksgiving feast and still want a sandwich on the side. And as for my boobs go...32B to 34D, SO FAR. I got measured for a new bra at Victoria's Secret last week. It isn't even big on me, it fits snug and there's not much room for growing.. I'M NOT EVEN HALFWAY DONE WITH MY PREGNANCY!!! I swear if I have to special order a bra by the end of my pregnancy i'm going to be pissed. PISSED. I don't want big boobs, they hurt and none of my shirts fit. Boo.

Lately i've noticed that I get a lot of the attention for having the baby I think because i'm the one who's physically having it, when in reality Alex is the one who holds me together, he is literally my backbone. I COULD NOT do it without him & i'm soo thankful I have him. I've found myself a real man. I see so many poor girls who's boyfriends run out on them with the thought of pregnancy, but that's not the case with Alex. This pregnancy has done nothing but draw us closer to each other & created a more intimate relationship between us. The feeling you get from bearing a child with the person you love most in this world is unlike anything i've ever felt. I've never been closer to anyone before & I don't think anyone knows me better than he does. From the day I found out I was pregnant he's been right by my side and hasn't left it since. He is constantly asking questions (so cute!), thinking of names, making plans to be the t-ball coach, always talking about the day we will get married, & how we've got plans for more kids in the future. He is my everything. This baby is so lucky to have two parents that have unconditional love for each other and for him. Together forever through the laughs, kodak moments, arguments, tough parental decisions, & anything else life will throw at us. I will grow old next to my best friend. I love you to the moon and back, forever & ever.


Oh and girls, when you go on a dinner date, out-eat your boyfriend, and he still wants to...ya know ya know...thats how you know, THAT BOY LOVES YOU!! :]
I'll post a picture soon, I just haven't grown much yet!! lol Oh and P.S. Next doctors appt. is September 14th..I think we find out the gender..yayay :]

Burn Baby, Burn!

My first blog turned out way better than I expected :] I had several friends tell me they enjoy reading this & I even had a friend message me & tell me she's two weeks behind me. So she likes seeing what she's got ahead of her, I had no idea! Yay for having a friend who's going through it at the same time!

Alex and I are kind of nervous about a lot of things about the whole pregnancy such as food I can and can't eat. That's one of the harder parts about pregnancy b/c there are things you can't eat FOR SURE and there's things that are kind of parents opinion. I've read milllllionsss of articles about everything about pregnancy. I really wanted some chocolate the other day so I read a few articles and I came across this one mom who said "if you eat candy you & your child will be in the hospital for months after it's born & it could die!!!!!!!" ...personally, I think that's a little extreme. I think everything is okay in moderation right? A little chocolate here and there isn't gonna hurt anything. Alex was actually telling me about a couple he knows that were crazy health freaks during pregnancy and never gave into cravings or anything of the sorts and her children are actually kinda slow, so Alex said go for the Hershey's bar :] lol

Being pregnant at 19 & not married I've gotten my fair share of rude, negative comments so far, but this one struck me as particularly odd. This is from an older adult might I add, he said.."You know, you should really figure out what caused that..." and i thought to myself is "David" (made up a new name, learned that one in operation aware ;] ) serious right now? Is that the only thing he's got to say to me? No words of wisdom or anything?! So I quickly replied with a clever comeback..."Oh don't worry! We already figured it out! That's the last time i'll ever pee on the toilet right after my boyfriend, let me tell you!!!!" Ha I win.



So idk if any of you are into crappy, teen television shows, but I am. NOTE: IF YOU KEEP UP WITH TEEN MOM && SECRET LIFE AND AREN'T CAUGHT UP ON CURRENT EPISODES SKIP AHEAD UNTIL YOU SEE "STOP". Anyway, so i was laying there watching secret teen and was thinking how messed up their situations are, with them all having each others babies and i'm thinking man, this show doesn't make me look so bad having a kid at 19. I should make all the adults in my life watch this with me! I'm 19, graduated from High School, got some college under my belt, i've got two jobs...I look like a saint compared to them!
And so then i'm watching the latest episode of Teen Mom where it shows Farah in therapy and she starts crying about her baby daddy b/c he died. So then I start thinking..what if Alex dies?!?! The next thing you know i'm crying on my computer sending him a message about how I love him and I don't want him to ever die. His response? "Hahahaha" So then I realized I just had yet another pregnancy meltdown.

STOP. (Thought I would forget huh? No way jose!) I actually typed that section the other night so I think those are from last weeks episodes lol


Anyway..

14 weeks today
I have never had heartburn so bad in my entire life. It feels like I ate jalapeno's(sp?) for a week and they're just chillin' in my throat. Uhm..everything makes me emotional, can't really listen to the radio much b/c every song makes me cry. Shorts are getting a litttteee snug on me. Idk what i'm going to do about school clothes since I can't really buy any back to school jeans. Boo. I tried prenatal yoga the other day, I was shaking and sweating like nobodys business, I look up at the time and I was only 12 min into it....fml.

School starts Monday..SO excited to be "the pregnant girl" in class lolz oh welll...I kinda wanna mess with people when they start asking questions if i'm pregnant and stuff. When they ask I'll be like "no? why?? YOU CALLING ME FAT?!?" & just make it as awkward as possible..lol

That's pretty much it for todayyy!
I'll post this & put a picture up here in a little bittttt :] i'm all cozy in bed right now.

P.S. PREGNANCY BRAIN IS REAL!!!1